singapore is small indeed.
my bunkmate, my own buddy used to work for andrew as a delivery man that delivers items for muji.
and somehow, we seems to recongize each other after we said that. LOL!

---

life still goes on.
i dont know how time is going to make me forget about everything..

i woke up this morning, with tears.
thought that i had a terrible nightmare like that i had in the past.
but apparently it wasn't.
this time round, it's the truth.
no longer anymore nightmare.

all of a sudden, my world seems to have collapse on to me.
i don't know how i am going to move on, after years.
i really don't know.

as expected, a couple of us got into eagles, a couple of us got into dragon.
and i got into dragon, PL3, so called, the most fittest among the company.
which explains that we need to climb to the 4th storey to our bunk while those nearing extreme are staying at 2nd floor.

discipline wise, it's super duper strict.
standby bed, standby room.
holy shit.

main activites were foot drill, AC, Strength test and lectures.
nothing pretty much.
except for shouting out songs everytime and everywhere we march to.
which i pretty enjoy it.

strength test took a toll on most of us, resulting us to NOT wash any clothes at night and instead, straight to bed after we bathed.
NS is fun actually.
ignore those people say what it's tough and etc.
i find it rather interesting and fun every single day.
be it with bunk mate or platoon mats or seargent or even encik.
though routine are the same everyday, jokes are different everyday.

that's all i guess.
xD

---

as soon as we were dismissed, the first thing i did was to rush and took a cab back home.
anticipating for the reply that i had asked.
been waiting for years, waiting for years to confess and finally i did, after mustering the courage from i dont know where.
as soon as i reached home, i found myself scanning for the email.
i found it and i teared in my heart as soon as i realised it's over.
and soon, the tearing stopped and my eyes teared with my heart sanking.

all the best in your future endeavours.
no awkardness ya?
hope that you will find your Mr Right one day.

yet another weekend spent at home.
before the 2 weeks of confinement starts.

sgt zhang was rather good to us for the past 1 week.
which made a couple of guys not wanting to leave bronco.
so called spoiled by him already.
241 was pretty aimed by a couple of platoon mate, not only me.
Company CQ asked us to help him out with the storeroom, and reward us with 1 kit kat each.
and it was such a privilage to see kit kat in tekong, not to say, taste it.

and i managed to took a ride on the land rover like those you see along the street that those army boys are driving and guess what?
it's soooo damn bloody shiok!
though it's pretty old, but it still cool~

one of those day when we were slacking, warrant ee, or rather, encik came over and tcss with us.
and the conversation goes like that.

encik: do you any of you have a girlfriend?
some yes, some no.
encik: do you love her mother?
no
encik: if that is so, then you better find another new one.
why?
encik: do you look like your father?
some yes, some no.
encik: ok, if no then never, if yes, then think! you girlfriend is going to look like her mom when she gets old. so you better start to love her mother now. and by the way, remember to ask your girlfriend if they love your father, if not, go get a new girlfriend that love your father, so when you grow old, they will still love you.

didn't even thought of that before though. LOL!
NS is not that bad as those people are saying.
i can vouch with my life that serving NS is much more like attending an adult survival camp.

so, training is starting soon on tuesday.
hope to get into warrent officer company instead of an officer company.

that's all i guess, will be posted to either dragon or eagles. blahhh

---

i probably know the answer already i guess.
i shouldn't talk much about it i guess.
it's over.
all the best to you.

that's all.
a whole full day of sleep.
and time to go!

lets go soldiers!

YES! WTF?!
everyone is asking me..
im here!~
right at my home! =D
but i lost 3 kg within 1 day..
my weight on my enlistment day was 112kg, and now, 109kg.
how great isn't it?

now they claims that i belong to extreme obese instead of mild obese group.
in other words, i will be stay at tekong for 26 weeks.
so now, my platoon and i would be attached to this current unit, bronco.
ok, actually, i got transferred to apache, then back to bronco.
xD

doing PT and 5BX with them, with like every exercise, the encik would come over and say this one don't do ar, or try this one, if cannot then don't do.
we're like some rare animal or some sort.
worst still, they are getting their wife next friday while we need to wait for 3 more month.
sad!
oh well..
life..

---

i guess i failed.
oh well.

Dear Readers,

As you are reading this post, I'm probably enroute for every guy's biggest fear. On some ferry heading towards Pulau Tekong.
Yes, I'm leaving civilization for 2 weeks before i can return, and carry on another 13 weeks of intensive training over there.
I've been waiting for this for my entire life, much more excited then ever.
But however, my old wound had came back and much or less, i'm getting prepared to get kicked out of tekong pretty soon due to my shoulder wound.
Certainly that would dash my dream of attending, or even, qualify for SISPEC or OCS.
I've made up my mind to not report this to my seargeant until anything happens.
Let's see what will happen then.
Wish me luck that i won't break my hand.

need to thanks to alot people for wishing me good luck. xD
was so surprised that lydia actually remembered my enlistement day and smsed me. LOL!
samuel and a couple few that smsed me..
the curry fish head and ee mee that gerald, nigel and edmund treated me last night.
the morning call from boon hock and talked nothing but nonsense.
and cheeyong, gary, jeremy, farhan and etc..
especially defu's wish, "See you at tekong next friday".
he's wish, always somehow never fail to amuse me.

---

i confessed.
yes, i finally did after so many years.
typed the email and sent.
i know i might lose a friend or not.
i still confessed.

to my dearest dearest dearest copycat, also known as missteoaikkun!
good luck and all the best today for your TP which is appromx. around 12 hrs plus later!!
you better pass it once if not..
if not..
if not i also dont know what i want to say. LOL!
but i know you will pass though!~
and with my sms! and you passed..
you own me a treat eh!
so..
greatest apologies if my sms woke you up from your dreamland!!~
will try to sms you if i managed to "borrow" my friend's hp.

---

1 day mission into KL and Malacca.
woots!

first case..
finally~

http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20090527/wl_asia_afp/singaporehealthflu_20090527032810

another good excuse to tell my mom that i should leave singapore for awhile.
probably to KL or malaaca.
LOL!

and anyway.
north korea will pay the price for it's action.
what price? LOL
they pay for the price, and we eat nuclear missile.
and USA still thinks that they can isolate N. korea.
my foot! LOL
N. korea could just launch a couple of missile and destory a couple of country and it wont be isolated.
xD

hopefully when i finished NS, there's chance for me to "experience life".
if you get what im trying to hint at.. xD

they got a new retail manager to replace me.
LOL!!

didn't know that was that great. xD

felt like i'm living on borrowed time.
04 june is coming!
and i've yet to get those items in the list.
blahhh..

malacca trip next friday.
1 day though.
not renting any car though.
it's gerald's car. LOL!
nigel be renting hyundai avante again.
LOL!

got hooked to hell's kitchen after playing it on facebook.
and i eventually watched the entire season 4 and 5 on youtube.
LOL!
considering to get the DVD set. xD

oh ya!
got a video to share with ya all.
not those that frequent cathay. xD

---

i think i shan't.
i shall leave what i want to say in my heart.

the following would be a long long long post.
so, yeaaa..

yes, today is my last day at muji.
time passes by so fast isn't it?

i vaguely remember that when i first joined MUJI paragon, not warehouse..
it was raining cats and dogs.
then i reported to bence and my first assignment was to dump empty carton with him and slack at the dumping bay while he smokes.
pretty easy isnt it? xD

adrian was still a senior retail assistant, while viki was like some random ah lian folding her clothes at ladies wear.

then saturday, i got to know wei yeow..
somehow, the first phrase i said to him was "eh? you working here also ar?"
when i don't even know he was from junyuan secondary.
surprising isn't?

3rd day work, was a morning shift on sunday.
then linda and shao feng approached me and talk, though i didn't really talk alot with shao feng..
his impression on me for the first few month was like those dao de people. =x

then slowly, sam introduce me to the staff there..
and i got to know adrian, gim lee, zaidi, jeff, mai, auntie chris, mario, karen and etc etc..
then i slowly got assignment straight from my supervisor, jass and subsequently, sabrin.

after i got a department myself, 109 AKA fabrics, i start receiving instruction from bence, jass and sabrin to recall my stock every sunday from warehouse.
then one fateful day, while folding my towels, adrian pulled me into the cashier and started to teach me how to us the cash register.

then mai starts to exploit me.. =/
taught me to do exchange, cash refund and voucher sales and etc etc etc.

then i did my first stocktake at paragon..
first overnight stay at paragon.
slowly, zaidi, jeff and a couple of guys left..

when mai resigned, a couple of cashier did came and they fail epicly.
sabrin then requested a cashier ID for me and i became the part time cashier for weekend.
then somehow i got closer to shao feng, mr admin or hoon feng feng. LOL!
i think it was something to do with the cashier thingy.

kelly then joined us..
raymond, virginia, janet and some other new staff joined us for the MS opening store.
those days was like fun!
everyone pratically was looking for a job to do..
due to the fact that there was so many staff around and pratically nothing to do at all, so we could slack in open! xD
then there was this crazy girl named serena that would stare at people when eating. LOL!!

the very first suntec sales!
sabrin "enlisted" me and sam to be a cashier over there.
then i got to know shu hua(hq admin coordinator), jing li(ms retail manager) and a reunion with the warehouse staff.

first batch of PRC arrived.
and i hated them so much so until i can blast a hole in their head with a shotgun if there isn't law.
jin yao joined us as well.
and i pawned him so much wit the sensor tag.

then MS opened, jass got transferred to there as a supervisor, as well as bence while adrian got promoted to supervisor to cover jass's place and viki gotten a senior retail assistant after folding millions of clothes or billion i think.
and i was once again enlisted by sabrin to help out at MS during their opening days.

it was the company's first DnD at Kbox cineleisure.
22 of november 07 as my memory didnt fail me because bloody hell, the entire muji celebrated my birthday.. =/
and i got lotsa cake smashing my face non stop.

the next event was the year end stock take.
i could vividly remember that we was the first store to finished it on the 2nd day, around 3am plus.
then we called bugis and MS, and we decided to lend a helping hand to MS.

had a change of managing director from nemoto to masusaki.
a couple of changes at HQ staff..

2nd DnD was at some 5 class buffet restaurant directly opposite suntec convention hall.
they planned seats for us to mingle with other staff, which failed epicly..
i hooked up with the warehouse peeps and adrian and a couple of our own kakis to have our rampage on the buffet and the free flow of tiger.
won a small lil muji clothes hanger from the lucky draw and WEI YEOW won the grand prize, a fujitsu laptop!
see! part timers own the rest! LOL!

then, this person name DANNY TAN arrived in MUJI as an AREA MANAGER.
he planned the stock take that requires us to close for 1 whole day instead of the 2 days after 8pm.
which fail epicly.
then DANNY TAN made jass and jing li to quit muji and up to 7 staff at marina square.
no bullshit! i was stunned when i heard this news.

then sabrin went for maternity leave.
so here comes sharon, jasmine and SOEGIARTO PRANAJAYA!
sharon is deemed as okok to me..
jasmine is deemed as Mouth Powered Manager, which only uses her mouth to direct instruction to people and i'm one of her victim as well.

finally, SOEGIARTO PRANAJAYA!
a indonesian chinese, male.
thinks that he is so great that he know everything about muji.
raising voice at people, acting like as though he is some big shot that has the greatest product knowledge in muji.
but in fact, he know no SHIT about muji product and his own product knowledge is absolute 0.
using fucking this fucking that every single time he open his mouth, slacking with jasmine while other colleague is doing ladies wear launch.
replying other colleague in a rude manner..
no fucking mood to learn.
and all this was his excuse.
they call him a supervisor.
we, part-timers call him a bullshit.

sadly he didn't even talked to me.
coz imma shout at him if he ever does that to me.
apparently there isn't going to be a chance for me to shout at him.
so i have decided to write a complain email to the upper management.

i'm glad that my ordeal with the current new management at paragon has ended.
a bitter sweet ending in muji.
miss working in the past with the previous staff.

that's all i guess..

am i lucky or what?
am i heng or what?
this 2 phrases kept going through my mind after i read this article.

http://asia.news.yahoo.com/ap/20090515/tap-as-malaysia-swine-flu-2nd-ld-writeth-b3c65ae.html

swine flu had hit malaysia!~
luckily i had came back from malaysia..
but then, it ruined our plan for the one day malacca trip which we planned to go after my payday!!
damn!

shall blog about the trip some days.

well.
today had been a emotional day for me.. i guess..
we had briefing, by our new supervisor, jasmine.
and she claimed that she was informed by another newer supervisor that the cashier aren't smiling and extending courtesy to the customer after transaction was done.

obviously i know who this is directed at.
so i asked her? what if there is like long queue? do we still smile?
i've forget what nonsense she cooked up with.
then viki, said that we should let him to be a cashier on a weekend.

i was like.. hey! for this 2 years plus, today was the first time that i couldn't agree more with viki that much.
i mean, ok, supervisor.
doesn't he know the basic to like learn to follow before you learn to lead?
then he was like 24/7 busy doing something which i sees that he's wasting his time on it.
blahhhh..
didn't even want to talk to him.

worst still.
when the cashiers passed him the float and audit roll and etc, he still has the cheek to say why you give to me, what am i suppose to do with it.
then i tell you..
i could see shao feng was like having the infamous wtf look on his face.
then he whispered, this kind of things also dont know, how to be a sup.

LOL!
first time, first time from the day i started working i heard shao feng gave such a bad comment to our own staff.
coz he normally would say she not bad what and etc.
LOLOLOL!
oh ok, not the first time..
it's the second time, the first time was when jasmine did something stupid, as a supervisor.

so shao feng, james and i conculuded that every newcommer that comes in with a managerial post will be hated at..
except for the new manager, sharon, at the moment.
you wont know what will happen tomorrow.
now you know how hard is it to survive in muji. =D

right.
so that jasmine made me to make a trip down to suntec sales to collect some paper carrier as we had run out of it and what?
this was the first time i ever received a timing from someone that wants me to collect something on their behalf and set a time limit for me.
which i couldn't care much about it eh.

went to suntec and viki called me to go marina square to collect more plastic bag when i was like... a few step to hall 325.
so i went in, confirmed the things that i need, then i went to marina square.
and adrian just went for his break and i looked around and see all those strange face.
so unlike the previous marina square MUJI.
so i stood there like a fucknut.

until i saw sam coming back from suntec sales for break, i joined him.
shortly, adrian called me and joined us.

and then..
we went to suntec sales again, collected my box of paper bag, slack alittle with wei yeow and evyonne.
went back to marina square to collect the plastic bag and tada~
im on cab and back to paragon.
time taken? i dont know.
i left Paragon at 2pm and when i reached back again, 4.25pm.

jasmine asked me if i helped out at suntec sales.
i said ya and walk off. xD
so bad right? =X

time to get some sleep.
malaysia trip tomorrow.
leaving singapore at like.. 5am? =/
just to avoid ERP! LOLOL!

---

still wondering if i should confess or not.

muji sales at suntec convention hall XXX tomorrow, up to 60% discount
apparantly i wasn't aware of the hall number as i wasn't the selected one.
gosh, meaning that i need to stay at paragon once again.

it isnt that bad afterall i guess.
i guess the queue would be as bad as the last time.
non stop of long long long queue.
and mind you, i was the one doing cashier that time from 10am to 10pm with 1 hour of break.

the new manager was clever.
no! im not saying sabrin was stupid to bring me to suntec.
LOL!
sabrin was clever to bring me to suntec. LOL!
sharon decided to keep me at paragon to do cashier instead of suntec.
so, dont go suntec for the "up to 60% discount" because im not there.
drop by paragon please!

THINK ABOUT IT! 60% DISCOUNT OR CATCH A GLIMPSE OF ME AND STAND A CHANCE TO WIN A CHANCE OF CHATTING WITH ME!

ps: the new supervisor sucks! felt so bad calling her jass when she doesnt even reach the slightest standard of the old jass.

excactly 1 more month before my exciting new life begins!
WOOTS!

and excactly 1 more week to driving into malaysia, Kuala Lumpur for a 3 days 2 night trip.

resigned.
yes, finally.

last day on 17 of may.
so sad that i didnt have the chance to set up MUJI at ION Orchard with sabrin.
coz she suddenly smsed me why i resigned and questioned me.
then she says that she wants to bring me to ION.

which is kinda good though, appreciate that alot coz if given a choice, i wouldn't want to stay with the current new manager and supervisor.
shao feng second that as well.

shall visit ION and sabrin sometimes later.

damn
my stamina dropped, after all that training at school's 2.4km.
started to pant like a dog after like 6 rounds?
shit!

sucks to be me.
time to get my fat ass moving tomorrow again.

pictures taken at the end of the prawning session.
still got more pictures that i've yet to receive.
caught hell lotsa prawn and watched them getting tortured.
sucks to be them.

that's all~

finally, it's raining.

in other words, which spoils my jogging plan.

i think you must had landed at hk safely.
enjoy your holiday(s).

i asked myself over and over again.
i tell myself over and over again.
i can't let it go.
its been years.

enjoy your holiday.

right!
i've received the letter already!
its confirmed! weeeeeeeee!
11.30 am to report!

can't wait to meet my new bunk mate and sergeant
gosh!
and to fire SAR21!

i am garang, i agree.

i dont know if i should be happy or sad.
definitely it's going to be the feeling like i got posted to a poly.
but then, where's my letter.

thanks to chee yong
if not, on that day i would arrested by the MP.
gosh!
i'm already starting to anticipate for the day to come.
YAY-NESS!

i think so far this is the only thing that i'm elated about it.
ok, probably the letter is in my letter box already...

raining cats and dogs, wind howling.
no shit.
it has been awhile since there's heavy rain at night.
just like my heavy heart.

contacts of those regulars no longer online till unearthly hours.
frequent chat diminished.
and soon, strangers.
it's part and parcel of life that people moves on.
and i see peeps of my moved on with their new lifes at poly.
i sometimes i do wonder if they still have a nostalgic for the ITE days.

i'm basically fermenting at home.
thinking what to do with my life, still.
no letter from NS yet, at the moment.

tried to made myself to not think about it
and it didn't work because i belonged to those type of humans that i had mentioned about a couple post before this.
suddenly a sudden urge came to me, urge to study. LOL!
i guess school re-open has been removed from my dictionary already.

不见馆材，不流泪
so true isn't it?

move on, move on.
that's all i guess.
nothing much to rant about my mundane life.

---

after so many years.
opportunities after opportunities.
i didn't had the gut to do so.
yes, i do feel that things had changed.
it's different as compared to few years ago.
i'm not blaming you.
it's me, i always screw up things.
should i had known earlier, i shouldn't had disturbed you or came across your life.
i have so many, so many to tell you.
because you made me look forward for school everyday in secondary school.
because all of a sudden my world revolved around you.
but i chose not to tell.
becuase i know it's impossible between us.
and this time, i choose not to minimise my words because i know you will never know it's you.
thank you for being there everytime when i needed someone.

went to airport swensen to have my meal and ice cream with gerald and gang after my work.
and i've got a celebrity brownie for free. LOL!
thanks to nigel's friend. xD

the rest was unlucky, coz they order way way way before me. LOL!

nothing much to blog about.
school reopens on monday for peeps, not for me.

watched "Taken" with jeremy and 2 of his other friend. both are guys, so sad. LOL!
and i didn't notice that today was the release date for Taken until i was on the bus back home.
so omfgwtfbbqilovemaozedong right?

"I don't know who you are. I don't know what you want. If you are looking for ransom, I can tell you I don't have money. But what I do have are a very particular set of skills; skills I have acquired over a very long career. Skills that make me a nightmare for people like you. If you let my daughter go now, that'll be the end of it. I will not look for you, I will not pursue you. But if you don't, I will look for you, I will find you, and I will kill you. "

so power right?
touching story ar!
i shall exposed abit!
its about a dad, that sacrificed his family for his job; secret agent.
(when the movie starts, he retires already, to spend more time with his daughter. previously his wife broke up with him and re-married another rich ass fellow)

then his daughter got kidnapped and sold to some prostitute syndicate.
then he had to get back into action with all the "skills" to save his daughter back.
that's all.
its highly recommanded ar! xD
by me though. xD

omgomgomgomg!
Company of Heroes; Tales of Valor is OUT!!!
omgomgomgomgomg! i wanna get it so much man!!!!!
imma Company of Heroes fan i tell you!
i've got Company of Heroes, Company of Heroes; Opposing Force and I WANNA GET Company of Heroes; Tales of Valor laaaaa!
WOOOOOOO!

ok, that's it.
no more happy post from now on.

something that is blog worthy for the night.
it's defu once again.
having the phobia of his sister already..

ps:
still love to talk with jeremy forever, like how he love to talk with joshua's type of people.

greatest apologies to all for the sudden lock of my blog.
was doing some editing of my new blog skin, which apparantly failed.
so, i've decided to use back my current skin at the moment and work on my new skin.

watched "Knowing" last night.
yes, i know..
i've been spending alot on watching movies every night.
oh well, it's like 2 years since i watch movies at movie theatre ok?
working and working and working my guts off every weekend.
so it's time for me to take back what i should. LOL!

anyway, it's good to have lots of computer and wireless at home.
was having some internet party at gerald's house yesterday afternoon, playing navyfield together at his room.
should had brought my copperheard razor over!
dont really like his lanchasis razor though..

so, knowing, was quite a good show i should say.
a show that kinda answer my answer about life..
kinda answer only..
and shit, gerald got spooked out and he actually jumped in his seat. LOL!

that's all i guess..
gotta work on my new skin. xD

shao feng claims that i'm facing depression when i'm bugging him during work time at storeroom 1 last weekend.

and the following walls of words would be full of paradox sentences and probably a mixture of oxymoron phrases. so please, bear with me.

i dont know if im thinking too much or what. but is education important? at all? yes, im sure many would say yes for the sake that it would ensure you a bright future, high salary, blah blah blah and the list goes on and on and on. and im sure, everyone would still have the same destination. coffin.

i've asked alot of people opinion about such incident. and many gave me different point of view. some says that's why we need to study hard to ensure that we have lots of money to enjoy ourself.
some says it's once in a life time in your life, so do what you are happy as you deem.
some says whatever you have done, just don't regret with your choices.
some says live with it, if it's done, it's done, no point harping on it.

but, who is it that define education that it's important? it's human afterall.
like what i told shao feng,
human design, invent and create things to kill human.
for instant, we design car and when car met an accident, life would be lose.
we design television and computer and when we spend too long time with them, we would wear specs.
we design battleships, and war machines and claim that they would bring peace, but we've created more orphans, windows then before.
we create instant noodle and when we overdose it, we would die eventually.

then shao feng says that instand noodle is created for those that are busy people.
so why is there busy people?
because they have a deadline to rush or something to rush or alot of agenda waiting to be completed.
why they have a deadline to rush or agenda to complete?
because if they meet the deadline, they will get money.
if they complete the agenda, they would have chance to be promoted when the promotion period kicks in. alot of people blames money as the main culprit for everything.
but think again, who invented money?

"Money is a matter of functions four, a medium, a measure, a standard, a store. That is, money functions as a medium of exchange, a unit of account, a standard of deferred payment, and a store of value."

definition found in older economics textbook, then again, who wrote them?
dont tell me that it appeared out of nowhere.
it's we human that defined it.
it's good that we fight for something that we want, to have a sense of achivement.
but it has turn into a obssession among us, or rather, it has influenced all of us that it's a MUST for everyone in order to survive in this harsh world.
then who was the one that defined this harsh world?

see, the point is, the earth is afterall controlled by us, human. and all those education, jobs, money, society, education, blah blah blah are all defined by humans, except for scientist which they define the past of the earth and universe.
especially society.
yes, everyone would says education is important because everyone is been brought up by this way.

i mean, does anyone ask why? why does there need to be requirement to study certain course or subject or educational institute?
because it is a statement that identifies a necessary attribute, capability, characteristic, or quality of a student in order for it to have value and utility to the course or educational institute.


here comes the obvious paradox sentence. yes, without education, we can't save lifes like those doctors does. cancers, kidney dialysis and etc. but then, what causes the increase of cancers and other sickness nowadays. partially, it's contributed by our hectic lifestyle. well, im not a doctor nor whatsoever, so correct me if im wrong. (zserty257@hotmail.com)

it has turned into a process.
study hard, get a good degree or diploma, work your ass off to get money, find someone you like to spend your life with, make some children, educate your children like how you were been educated, retire, select a good looking coffin that you like and you sleep in it until you are burned into ashes.
and soon, your existant would be zero in their memories when your children soon return to their busy life and probably they wouldn't have time to pay you respect once a year.
that's my 10 cent worth of thoughts.

human had been contradicted by human all along.
we take things for granted from what has existed in the past.
why is it so that no one wants to change it?
from my point of view, everyone had been brainwashed by this world and didn't thought of changing things because it would seems impossible for us to change.
but look, people that created all those rules and regulation.

for instant, raping is illegal and considered as a bad act.
what if people in the past label it as a honourable act, things would be different ya?
ok. probably i'm stupid or what. but that's how i feel.
what if things happened another way in the past? would things still be the same now?
yes, of course this is total bullshit because people had been brought up in the manner that raping is illegal and against the law.


how about life?
i asked jeremy personally on monday.

"Life, you are here to do something great or die trying and most people die trying"
as quoted from jeremy.


this had set myself thinking, why most people die trying? because they are never content with what they have or rather, every people has different level of being content!
they kept wanting more and more and never ending.
some felt that 1.5k per month is contented.
some felt that 10k per month is contented.
some felt that they wants to earn 10million per month then they will feel contented.
but then, if they earns 10million per month, are they going to be contented?


it's good that human are aiming higher for their goals, but most of the time, they would set more and more goals after achieving one after another, which will lead to endless level of content.
that's why no one would be happy with what they have now.
that's why some would say the poor is the rich while the rich is the poor.
it's obvious that this paragraph is contradicting and many people would not agree with this.
but however, that's my own personal opinion though.


im just wondering does anyone thought about the meaning of life before they pass away?
or they pass away thinking about their children's future and leaving their will behind?
i should consider myself lucky to be here typing this post if not for my elder sister's death in my mom's womb.
i only heard my mom said this once, and i didn't asked much..
"if my sister had been born, there won't be me, because we only planned to have 1 child."

how many truth do we know from our parents?
non. other then those common topic..
but what happen before we are born? i dont know about other friend's parents share it when them, but for me, they seldom talk about it except about the shophouse, my elder sister and nothing much.
probably there might be another elder brother or sister before my so called "elder sister" as well.

but however, i still thank the people in the past for invent things that made my life so comfortable now.
which seems to be abit contradicting though.
life IS suppose to be contradicting; periods.

every human is supposed to think differently, but then why are we forced to follow some other person's thought?
probably that's why people quarrel due to the different point of view generated from the brain.
life.
who knows the real meaning of life?

although i'm still rather skeptic about religion.
for all you might know, it might be created by the people in the past to supress the chaos or even probably to answer to some people question about life after death.
but still, i do feel about their existance somehow. coincidence or gut feeling?
i kept those incident to myself.

life.
what is life?
are we supposed to follow the rules and regulations has been laid down for us by the ancestor?
or are we suppose to create our own?
or are we suppose to follow the rules and regulation that has been laid down for us and create more of it for the next generation?
it's contradictory.

that's all i guess..
although i still have alot alot more to talk about.
shall talk about those some other times..

caught "12 rounds" with the altis gang at E-hub!
LOL!

i should say its quite a nice movie yeaa?
let see..
malaysia in may? anyone?!
gerald be renting estima yo!

and i just realised that yi hao got the same birthday as me..
after he pm-ed me in some forum.
how cool~
now then i realised that my secondary school mate has the same birthday as me. LOL!

let see.
James got into Guards.
Gerald got into 41st SAR (Singapore Amour Regiment).
Jeremy got into BMTC Tekong school 2.

and im wondering where's mine!

confirm i'll be going for SOF, Hendon camp!
hohoho!
they be driving Leo 2 to escort me to there! =D

oh yeaaa..
i had been bugging shaofeng about life's definition.
and jeremy as well.
shall post my own personal view about it later, it's in my draft, still yet to be completed.

and jeremy got the shock of his life when i told him i email the principal and deputy principal of RP. LOL!

i know how jeremy feel like punching me right in my face after hearing my encounter just now.
sorry mate!

and once again.
i'm sorry to myself for breaking the promise that was made to myself to grab hold of any opportunity if it's available.
and there it was, an hour or 2 ago and mrt station and i didn't.
FUCK!

because everytime when i want to forget about something, it would resurface again.
and it did.
i took a long time to hestitate if i should drop her a message..
eventually i did..
tsk..

Used to be Commonly known as bear bear or ah bear among MUJI. Also known as boon in the west, kiat in the east. The last batch of the 80s babies! Dropped onto the hospital's baby craddle on 19Nov. Used to be a student of BWPS for 6 years and JYSS for 5 years. Right now, he is STUCK in a "College" for 2 years where no one wishs to study at. He is a WWII addict and had a great passion for Airsoft, not forgetting about soccer too. I think he only has a few simle wish but i think all his wish might/might not come true. Especially that wish.
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